For the past week I’ve been in bed rest. I’ve been in & out of the doctor’s office getting tests done on my body, in particular my blood & heart. It’s been tough, even the thought of it brings tears from the anxiety. There’s certainly no face mask or makeup product that can hide the tiredness behind my eyes.
I keep coming back to this idea …
The second you wake up is the moment you have the power to decide if you’ll have a good day. You have control over the little voices in our head. YOU ARE IN CONTROL.
Some days I felt sick the second I woke up & that’s when I surrendered my power to the illness. I immediately felt weak, for the rest of the day. Today was different. I finally woke up not feeling sick for the first time in awhile. The idea of not being sick anymore made me smile with joy. Then the first picture I came across on Pinterest said, “What if soy milk is just regular milk introducing itself in Spanish?” I thought that was hilarious & could not stop laughing! I started the first 30 seconds of my Saturday laughing, feeling happy, & appreciative of good health. That’s when I decided that I was not going to let my weakness bring me down on this day or interrupt with my happiness. The day went on despite my body feeling weak. I was surrounded by friends & family who love me. In the back of my mind, I heard of the whispers of my illness coming back reminding me how much I wish I was resting in bed cuddled up in blankets, but I refused to allow those thoughts to consume my mindset. It’s hard. When my friends wanted to talk about it I felt the anxiety rush into my chest. At that moment, I refused to talk about it. It’s ok to say no. When I knew my mindset was in a better place, I confronted my friends about what was really going on with my health. I am in control of my life. I am in control of my health. I have control over the little voices of anxiety in the back of my mind trying to break me down.
You have control as well. Whether it’s anxiety or a chronic illness that you have to face everyday or depression; you are in control. Life is 10% of what happens to you & 90% of how you react to it. Life is too precious to be wasted on days of self-pity. Life is what you make of it.
Once again I will remind you all … Everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about. Be kind. Always.
I don’t usually post pictures of my family & friends because they are precious moments I selfishly keep to myself. Today they are extra special to me considering the amount of love & support I’ve had from them this past week.